Out in paperback tomorrow! August 22nd 2019



‘I loved it’ Jojo Moyes

‘Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry’ Marian Keyes


Audrey’s family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected. 

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?


This is a novel about life, death, family, trust, grief, denial and blame. And a lot of other things besides. Books examining family dynamics have always fascinated me. In this story we meet Jess, for whom life changed dramatically when she was ten years old and saw her elder sister by three years, Lily, coming out of a the door of the spare room. Whatever happened that day, we don’t discover until near the very end and it’s ever present throughout the story. The event rocked Jess’s world, caused her to irrevocably fall out with Lily and destroyed their family harmony forever. My mind positively boggled as I ran through all kinds of scenarios in my head and each one was wrong!..:

Moving back and forth between the 1980’s and the present day, Audrey, the girl’s mother is terminally ill and determined to live what’s left of her life to the full. The things she plans to do on her bucket list are achievable if she gets a move on and Audrey enlists the help of her granddaughters, Pheobe and Mia, the respective children of Lily and Jess. One problem with that though is that Jess has forbidden Mia to have any contact with Pheobe.

Gripping throughout and beautifully written, this book tore me out and turned me inside out with the emotion of it all. Although you might get through a box of tissues reading this book, it’s not however a misery read, it’s an uplifting wonderful read and is simply outstanding.

The situation between Jess and her family prompted me to write to a family member of mine from whom I’m estranged and who is as stubborn and unforgiving as Jess and I don’t hold out any hope of a reconciliation but can only try. As this book reminds us, life really is too short.

An outstanding read

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About the Author

Hannah Beckerman studied English at King’s College, London and for a Master’s degree at Queen Mary and Westfield, London. She spent twelve years working in television, first as a Producer for the BBC and subsequently as a Commissioning Editor for Arts and Documentaries at Channel 4 and the Discovery Channel USA. She lived in Bangladesh for two years, working for the BBC World Service Trust.

Hannah is now a full-time author and journalist. She is a book critic and features writer for the Observer, the FT Weekend Magazine and the Sunday Express and a regular chair at literary festivals and events. She has been a judge for numerous book prizes including the Costa Book Awards. If Only I Could Tell You is Hannah’s second novel. She lives in London with her husband and daughter.